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05 May 2009 @ 10:02 pm
Two days til the big day.
I'm torn.
I think the novelty of being eighteen has worn off before I've even reached the milestone

48 hours and I'll be eighteen, and I doubt it'll feel much different to being 17, since I've already done the majority of things only 18 years olds can legally do. mega sigh.

I'm reflecting again, aren't I? I tend to do that a lot lately.

I don't want to be a grown up!!

Plus, i don't think i'm quite as mature as I should like to be, but then again, a handful of my acquaintances appear not to be gaining maturity points in my eyes, so perhaps I'm being influenced - brought down.

Is it fair to accuse someone of taking you for granted because they only appear interested in you when you may have information of interest or something else of equal use? Or would that simply be paranoia?

because you make me feel like i'm walking on water,
only to be pulled under the surface
submerged in you

ta la la la
sam xo.

02 May 2009 @ 12:57 pm
So. I've been doing a lot of writing lately. My days that should be filled to the brim with revision for those looming a levels is literally crammed with my writing my attempt at a novel. I'm not sure if I've prioritised very well, but then again, I never do. After writing this, I promise to get something done, maybe, possibly, probably not, but at least the thought's there. That's what matters, right? (:

I'm pretty sure that whatever my parents went out for today has something to do with my birthday on thursday; I say this, because I wasn't allowed to even glimpse out of the living room window to see what they'd brought home. Usually I'm taken out to pick a present, and on this occasion no such trip has been made and I've not been asked what I want. Either they've forgotten and they've brought something dodgy, or I'm in for a birthday surprise. Go me, maybe.

It's early on in the day, and I'll probably blog again later. But here's a small blurb for something I've written; it needs some rewording in places but I like it.

Beyond The Beginning.

It has often been regarded as somewhat humiliating to fall from grace; to slip from the grasp of the normal pressures a life can bind you to. To tilt the balance and become momentarily cast aside from the rest of humanity would be, as I'm sure many would agree, ridicule. Although, what if one was never a part of humanity, and therefore not human? He's fallen from grace, dignity and descended upon a place he knows little of. He's fallen far from home, left to roam amongst those of whom he despises; humans.

Current Mood: chipperchipper
30 April 2009 @ 07:49 pm

So, I took a personality test.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||||| 74%
Stability |||||||||||| 50%
Orderliness |||||||||| 34%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||| 66%
Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56%
Intellectual |||||||||| 34%
Mystical |||||||||||| 50%
Artistic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Religious || 10%
Hedonism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Materialism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Narcissism |||||||||| 36%
Adventurousness |||| 16%
Work ethic |||||||||| 36%
Humanitarian |||||||||||||||| 70%
Conflict seeking |||| 16%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 50%
Romantic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Avoidant |||||||||||| 50%
Anti-authority |||||||||||| 50%
Wealth |||||| 30%
Dependency |||||||||||| 50%
Change averse |||||||||||| 50%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Individuality |||||||||||||| 56%
Sexuality |||||||||||| 43%
Peter pan complex |||||| 30%
Family drive |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical Fitness |||||| %
Histrionic |||||||||||| 50%
Paranoia |||||||||||| 50%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Honor |||||||||||||||| 63%
Thriftiness |||||||||||| 43%
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Current Mood: anxiousanxious
30 April 2009 @ 04:19 pm
I feel a little lost today. I suppose it started a couple of days ago, the feeling of being a little on edge, out of sorts, not completely in focus with the rest of the world.

My eighteenth birthday is in a matter of days, perhaps that's the reason; i just want to cling what few days of technical childhood I have left. But I fear it might be to do with the fact I know I won't be able to share the day with all of the people I care about.

I won't moan any longer about my nostalgia, but i do just wish things hadn't fucked up right at this moment. Any other time wouldn't have felt so harsh and underhand. This, however, is just another prime example that someone up there really likes to see me get pissed off, upset and angry.

What was honestly so wrong with caring in the first place?

My 18th birthday is a matter of days away, and I feel sick at the thought of doing anything other than sit here and ignore what's going on with everywhere else. The tree of knowledge has always made shit hit the fan.

Ignorance is bliss.
28 April 2009 @ 10:07 pm

Since I abandoned my old one due to t being clogged, and my being too lazy to even bother to clear it out.

Here's to another, and hopefully more organised blog.

Now, to find a nice layout to use.

Ciao, Sam x